I'm Sorry 07/29/2009
This is something I wrote a while ago. _____________________________________________________________ I know you wanted a perfect child, Dad I know you wanted a boy. And whenever I came along, All you could think was 'why?' -- I know you wanted a brainiac, That was always your wish. But when I was just average, It wasn't the perfect dish. -- I’ve got a little sister now, Actually, now she’s nine. Please don’t make me teach her, What I had to learn with time -- How to build walls around yourself, How to protect your heart. How to live a total lie, Without falling apart -- How to hide all of your pain, How to fight the tears. And how to always live, With all of the fears -- The fear that in time, When I’ve finally flown the coop, When I have kids of my own, That I could be like you. -- The fear is truly crippling, And one that will always be with me. But I am happy to report, I think she may be free. -- Free from the disappointment, Free from your demands. She should be glad to know, The attention’s not secondhand. -- I want you to love her, Always give her the best. Listen to all of her problems, Oblige her every request. -- I really don’t want, For you to feel guilty. I’ve forgiven you, but I want, You to forgive me. -- I’m sorry that I have, Formed myself a crew, Willing to give me, That which I don’t get from you. -- I’m sorry I can live my life, I’m sorry I can deal. I’m sorry that I can’t pretend, I’m sorry that I’m real. -- I'm sorry I'm a girl, I'm sorry I'm okay. I'm sorry I'm not perfect, I'm sorry everyday. -- I'm sorry I'm beautiful, I'm sorry I'm carefree. I'm sorry I'm ambitious, I'm sorry I'm me. -- But could you hear my wish, Just this one time? I wish I could have just one day, The apology wasn't mine. CommentsLeave a Reply |
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